Options, Choices, Procrastinating...

Okay... so I may have inadvertently suggested that lots of terrible things have happened to me recently, but this is not true. I just feel like my life is on hold until I find out about this university course and whether or not my contract is going to be extended for another six months. And I guess there´s a couple of other parts of my life that are a bit tentative at the moment too.
Nothing´s wrong though.

The problem is that there are too many choices.
Sometimes I wish it was just about finding a husband, settling down and having babies because the amount of things that I can do is mind boggling! I have no attachments, no reason to go or stay anywhere, no career to pursue, no family that needs me, no money... that is about the extent of my restrictions, money. And I manage to get around that!

So, my first problem is that the world is my oyster. I can do whatever I want in it. I am still young enough to have the option to study almost anything I choose, to travel anywhere I can afford and to work crappy mindless jobs and still pretend it´s romantic!

This leads to my second problem: I have no ambition anymore.
I used to want to be a musician. That was it. That was all I ever thought about, all I ever considered. I was going to be a famous singer. Then I realised I didn´t want to be a famous singer. I still adore music and want to perform as much as I can, but fame and fortune is not for me!
But this was my dream and now... well, I just can´t decide what I want to do.

I love working with children so I could study early childhood education. I am fascinated with psychology so I could study that. But then on the otherhand, I love painting, literature, cooking...
I´d love to start my own business. I´d love to write a book.

But what should I do?????

And THEN... I love to travel and I don´t want to stop. I want to see all the countries in my dreams and dance and drink wine and meet people and play music with people...

Too many choices... and the clock keeps ticking... and I´m still sitting here wondering what the hell to do.