Up and down

So I didn't get into Uni. Which means I won't have a student card. Which means I won't get cheap travel. Which means I won't be visiting Australia.
Also means I'll have to think of something else to do. The thought of that makes me feel so tired.
Part of me is excited by the idea of travelling and seeing new things, but then, part of me is exhausted by the thought of always travelling and seeing new things. People around me are starting to settle down, buy houses, get married, have children. And here I am trying to think of which country I should live in next. Not really how I expected my life to be.
I guess the thing I should do is focus on music. It's about the only thing I have any real control over.
Work on my own stuff for the rest of the year and then move somewhere a little more... enthusiatic about live music and try again.
I almost wish it was 20 years ago and I could just meet any nice man and get married. Almost.