To do or not to do.
I sometimes wish I had of been born 30 years ago.
I'm 26 (and a half), single, broke, basically un-qualified, lacking in any kind of ambition, not beautiful but not ugly, not fat but not thin, not overly intelligent but not dumb ...
The problem I am faced with is that I have too many choices. Nothing is jumping out at me and saying "Hey, this is what you're supposed to do with your life!" so I have to consider everything.
At times I think, maybe I should find myself a nice man, buy a nice apartment, go back to school and get a nice job and have nice babies. This doesn't sound like a bad idea.
But then, at other times I think, maybe I should just leave with my suitcase and go to NYC. Get a job in a seedy cafe, date inappropriate men, go dancing every night and hang out in jazz clubs until I'm discovered by a Blue Note records manager. This also appeals to me.
Or maybe I could spend 6 months working my ass off and save every cent, then go off on a backpacking trip to all these countries that fascinate me. Start in Africa, then onto Canada, work my way down throught the US, then right through Sth America and finish off in Sth East Asia before heading home to Australia.
Or I could move to London and use all my succesful friends to get me gigs. Base myself there and make weekend trips all over Europe.
I kind of wish I didn't have these choices. In another time I would be married with babies by now. I'd be happy ... I wouldn't realise there were any other options so I wouldn't feel the need to consider them.
But there are ... and I am.
posted by Nina @ 10:55 PM
3 Comments:
Have I missed something? Is someone offering to have your babies!!! I think if you're feeling the compulsion to be a muso, then do it. But if you're lost and wondering then I would save, and travel. When you have babies you can't do it as freely and when you're a struggling muso you won't be able to afford to do it. Decision made.
We can get a spare bed and turn the "office" into a "room" for you, cheap rent, you and I shall never have privacy to be distracted by boys (unless they have their own swanky house or are single) and we save money and then run riot around the world. Easy peasy. See you soon?!
Sounds wonderful! Can we adopt a small child as well?
I was just thinking how roomy this flat was ...
Why not do ALL those things, or at least order it so that you fit in as many of them as you can, then have the babies last?! Sorted!
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